My point is that while it's easy to observe a conflict, blame both sides for behaving badly, and cast a "pox of both your houses", it may be a very unfair condemnation on someone that is simply attempting to not be trodden upon.
Contrary to what you might think, casting a "pox on both your houses" was not easy for me.
In fact, it is more accurately a symptom of the depths of my sorrow and despair that it has come to this.
I loved Harn (the use of the past tense is not accidental). It was quite simply the best world and games system I could ever hope to find. That love has been p*ssed on, spat on and down trodden over the last six years until I find myself so completely disgusted that I can't even bear to open one of my Harn books.
Canada has been lucky to never experience a Civil War. Unfortunately, I have been drawn into a real-life civil war in minature.
I didn't want to pick sides. In fact, I tried VERY HARD to stay neutral. However, in a Civil War you are not allowed to stay neutral.
I have ended up on the CGI side of the war. Not so much because I wanted to be, but rather because Robin made it clear that if I was not be publically FOR him then I was AGAINST him. Make no mistake, Robin DROVE me into the CGI camp. Contact me privately if you wish copies of the very nasty e-mails he sent me over the years. CGI on the otherhand, treated me with respect. They didn't demand my allegiance, rather they were polite, helpful and gave me time to come to a descision.
I get the very strong impression that Robin would rather see all of Harn destroyed before he would let Tom (or anyone associated with Tom, including myself) have it. Since the beginning, he has waged a war of scorched earth. Three times, I have tried to bury the hatchet with Robin. Three times he has come back with the same response (I am paraphrasing) "Bend your stiff neck, beg my forgiveness, confess all your sins publically, get in line with my disciples and NEVER EVER question me again." Ken, you know me. If there was ever a demand that would GUARANTEE my refusal, that was it.
He has succeeded in one respect. He has completely drained all the fun out of Harn for me.
Now, all I feel is bitterness towards him. He may have created Harn, but he is sure doing his best to destroy it.
Ken, I respect your loyalty to the man. I agree he was wronged in many ways. But having dealt with him on several occasions, I can see where Tom's patience must have run out.
I believe that if Tom and Robin had TRULY wanted to resolve this dispute, they could have. But neither was willing to "Bend their stiff necks".
In the end, one or the other will be left standing on the wasteland that will be their pyrrhic victory. They are welcome to it.
The only thing that keeps me involved with Harn at all, are the friends I have made here. I count you among them. Friday night, I spent the evening with Christophe, Rebecca, Andreas and Dave in Montreal. We had a great evening and talked Harn all night. It reminded me of the way Harn used to be for me.
I look forward to HarnCon V. It will be a gathering of friends and I will be glad to see them. I hope you are there.
- Kerry Mould